A parent physically abused me for half of my life.  I still live with him today.  I have to see him everyday of my life. I’m hurting inside and I do everything I can not to show it.  I don’t know how much more of this I can take and how much longer I can keep living like this. I want to get past these walls but just the thought of it terrifies me.  I’m afraid of the process and the hurt.  I have NO idea what my next step is…. Please help.

"Do you not know?  Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth.  He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom.  He gives strength the weary and increases the power of the weak.  Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall;  but those who hope in the Lord will renew your strength.  They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."  Isaiah 40:28-31

You are brave and incredible for taking the risk of sharing this.  You have made a first, huge, step in working through this.  The abuse that you have had inflicted on you does not define who you are.  It does not demonstrate your worth and your value.  You are beautiful in the eyes of God.  He longs for you to know, to see and to be the incredible and unique creation that you are!  You are valuable!

This process is definitely going to be a difficult one.  Any and all physical abuse needs to be reported for your safety and for others who may potentially be at risk.  You can't hold this in.  A school guidance counselor or psychologist, pastor or counselor can help you work through each step you need to take.  This is important as you move forward into healing.  Your wound is still open, you need to allow someone in to help you heal.  If you can't find it in yourself to open it all up at one time and let it all out, set up an appointment with a good Christian counselor and allow them to help you navigate through each level of your hurt and experience.  Free counseling is available through Coast Hills.  You cannot continue to do this alone!  Ask for help!  Call today!  You have taken the first step, you have outwardly expressed your hurt.  Take the next step and allow someone in to address it!  We believe in you!  You are valuable, and we love you!  You are in our prayers!