I’ve tried to open up but no one seems to understand.  My parents don’t.  My closest friends don’t.  It’s almost a good thing because it means they haven’t gone through this.  I hope to one does.  No one ever should.  The pain is like nothing I’ve ever felt. I’ve talked to people but I still feel alone and I can’t do it anymore.  It’s a living hell.  Suicide is a living hell.  I’ve lost hope.  Why me?