I can’t trust myself. I hate myself and the way I look. I hate my lust of my flesh and eyes, the way I try to resist authority and the way I try to turn from Christ. I hate how I used to drink and smoke and how it comes up. I hate how I feel like I have no control over my sexual desires. I hate my depression and my anxiety. I hate how inappropriate I can be in my relationships with friends and my gf, Pain and Suffering. If you are out there help me. I am lost and hurt and my relationships aren’t clean by any standards. I have no confidence and I am broken and lost and have given up. Give me strength to search for you and find you. I can’t see you but I hope your there. The one person who was really helping me and hardly allowed to know me and my relationship with her needs to be pure but isn’t and it leads to a vicious cycle of me sinning even more than I was because I was and am so upset. HELP ME! (SOS) Save my soul